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The soothing “rotating Canadian nature scenes” desktop wallpaper helps.

Morning coffee —> productivity and joy —> hunger —> delicious lunch —> more lunch while sort of working —> food coma —> slump —> end of everything.

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Had a 2 hour mental exhaustion nap after work today so obviously now it is 3am and I am still awake and watching The Mindy Project.

It is my call-to-the-bar ceremony this afternoon and I never really thought it was a big deal, just something mandatory that seems sort of frivolous given it doesn’t actually confer unto me a different status… Buuuuut now I’m actually thinking about it and am bugging the hell out. Now I am at this point in my life that has always seemed so far away. I have a job where I can do real good for actual people, and I am so excited but doing this new thing will mean learning o be self-sufficient in every way. It took me until a couple of years ago to really grasp what it means to be in control of your life and make your own decisions (better late than never?). There are going to be so many changes in the next while and I feel like I need to remember to keep finding my value and fulfillment from my own decisions and my own self, instead of depending on my job/career/title/partner/other people for validation and happiness. I will need to remind myself of this a lot. Life has never felt richer than it does at this point and I think it’s because lately I have been working on making myself better instead of expecting happiness to be created for me. I’ll be working at this forever!

The ceremony tomorrow doesn’t do anything real but it marks the end of the part of my life that I feel was more or less mapped out for me. The fact that I know I have full ownership over my future from now on makes everything so different. 

I somehow managed to find a job working with super friendly, supportive and smart people, doing law that I enjoy and indeed WANT to do, in an office in which there are MANY impossibly cute dogs at any one moment. It almost seems like a joke. I am so nervous that eg) I won’t fit in, or will say something completely offensive and life ruining at a crucially important moment, or will spontaneously combust my files somehow, but really, everything is in place and all I can do now is try to be the best at this that I can possibly be.

I somehow managed to find a job working with super friendly, supportive and smart people, doing law that I enjoy and indeed WANT to do, in an office in which there are MANY impossibly cute dogs at any one moment. It almost seems like a joke. I am so nervous that eg) I won’t fit in, or will say something completely offensive and life ruining at a crucially important moment, or will spontaneously combust my files somehow, but really, everything is in place and all I can do now is try to be the best at this that I can possibly be.

Issues

My biggest insecurity probably has to do with the monetary value of my cartoons. Whenever I respond to an enquiry with a(n unreasonably low) quote, I always expect a cop to like jump me and arrest me for being a huge fraud. “You can’t make money off your doodles!!! That doesn’t exist!!! YOU’RE TRICKING PEOPLE”

Cry - Mandy Moore→

IT WAS THEN THAT I REALIZED
THAT FOREVER WAS IN YOUR EYES
THE MOMENT I SAW YOU CRY

junyiwu:

Chandelier | Diamonds

Preparing for my job in two days which involves a lot of family law legal aid files and psyching myself out to give people “advice” about their very real very immediate problems… is both exciting and absolutely terrifying…

tsabe:

The Animated Self Portrait 

T.S Abe

the tiny down-up with the eyes is just perfect.

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